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November 10, 2013
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 Posted: Post subject: Welp I kinda in a ditch |
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| So my name is Eileen. 21 yrs old. I'm a fully passable trans women. I guess what I'd like to vent out at the moment is that. Okay.. so I've achieved my goal of making what I see in the mirror, reflect exactly what I feel. I'm super happy about it!. Everyone tells me i'm beautiful. Men ask me out or perve on me regularly. Some woman get pissed off at me because I look super amazing even. (not to sound conceded) But.. despite these facts.. I can't help but feel that something. or someone is missing. I consider myself Bisexual/pansexual I suppose? Though I prefer woman, I find a greater connection Mentally, Physically, and se---lly. I've tried dating men.. and while there are great guys out there with good hearts.. I always felt empty or missing something. And dating cis women for me doesn't really work... cause when its time to get laid... they expect the stinger to come out... and like.. totally penetrate them. WHICH is SUPER uncomfortable to me. I don't like it! I LOVE VAGINA LOVE IT. but I just cant use my..girl d--- that way.. and on a side note.. I also have issues with guys touching me there too. I just don't feel right in my skin in that scenario either.. So I think what I really need.. is someone else like me. A trans woman. my age. I think what im missing is being able to have someone who at the end of the day, understands what it's like to be one of us. ... But there's another bump isn't there. Many trans women are attracted to men.. and not women trans or not.. so ---- me... -.-" And if I come across one... They never live near me.. I swear I'm the only t girl in my immediate area.. unless there are others hiding, or perhaps blend just as well. Honestly though.. We don't even have to date.. or be attracted to each other. Id be fine if there was at least SOMEONE like me around to hangout with like on a daily basis. But.. of course. Life would be too complete on my end.. -.- Still dreaming~ |
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